"Why can't you just be happy?" Ah, naïve words spoken from ignorant mouths. Of course I want to be happy. I try each and every day to find some type of happiness in my pathetic life. But there's something wrong with me, a chemical imbalance in my brain that triggers this constant state of sadness and despair. Every "happy" moment or memory is overshadowed by double or triple the amount of sad ones. So no, I can't just be happy. There is a girl in my head who takes happy moments and memories and has her way with them. She blackens the sun and the sky. She clouds my vision so everyone and everything looks twisted and deformed. She takes great pleasure in doing these things, and I don't blame her. She's just doing what my brain created her to do. So we work together to slowly destroy what little happiness I have left.
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